Be You Be Here
You are allowed to be you
You are allowed to be here
Those sense of words that I wished to hear as a child
But my family home wasn’t the case
I was not allowed to be who I was
I learned to depreciate my existence
The lack in the sense of love and belonging
will reappear in your adulthood as difficulty in your human connection
I’ve leant over time that it is possible to fill the huge hole in your heart by yourself
little by little
Often you hear ‘love yourself’ but not really sure how?
I reckon that is not me alone doubting this big task
First and foremost
Accept the whole of you
including that part you dislike and all the flaws
Never beat up yourself
Never abandon yourself
Never be your enemy
Those ‘never’ can be hard to keep I know
and more often than not
you can’t
Accept those who cannot
Oh I did beat myself up again, didn’t I?
It has been hard as such
It is ok having to beat myself up and that is also me
You start to accept you even the one who beats yourself
instead of denying or beating one again and again
This is the thought process of “negirai” in Japanese,
helps reduce the arrows that aimed at you
Your existence itself is worthy of love
You, only you in this world,
can reach out to yourself
Each day and every day